Nick & Derek Series by Mel Bossa

Quiet and imaginative, Derek O'Reilly spends a lot of time watching a movie in his head. His fiancé Nathan, aka "Mr. Alpha", wonders why Derek hasn't taken any interest in their wedding planning. Aunt Fran—his spiritual guru—would like to know when her guilt-tripping nephew became some kind of kept boy. One evening, she drops Derek's childhood journal on his lap, forcing him to remember the name he's been trying to forget since he was eleven years old. Nicolai Lund... moreQuiet and imaginative, Derek O'Reilly spends a lot of time watching a movie in his head. His fiancé Nathan, aka "Mr. Alpha", wonders why Derek hasn't taken any interest in their wedding planning. Aunt Fran—his spiritual guru—would like to know when her guilt-tripping nephew became some kind of kept boy. One evening, she drops Derek's childhood journal on his lap, forcing him to remember the name he's been trying to forget since he was eleven years old. Nicolai Lund. Nick was Derek's neighbor—and first love. Weeks before Derek's engagement party, a chance meeting with Nick catapults Derek into the past. Nick could flood Derek’s stale existence like a blond tidal wave, but Nick isn't that sixteen-year-old rebel anymore. He's a man hardened by invisible scars. As Derek reads through his diary, Nick and Derek’s powerful relationship sways between past and present, sweeping over their emotional landscape, revealing what they were, still are, and might yet be to each other. less

For two years, Ethan Fiennes has been trying to keep his mind and hands off Myles O'Reilly, his employee and top stylist at the salon. But the fiery redhead is after Ethan's heart, and though Ethan is still grieving over his lover's sudden death, he can't help falling in love with Myles. How can he resist him? Myles is everything Ethan has been yearning for... moreFor two years, Ethan Fiennes has been trying to keep his mind and hands off Myles O'Reilly, his employee and top stylist at the salon. But the fiery redhead is after Ethan's heart, and though Ethan is still grieving over his lover's sudden death, he can't help falling in love with Myles. How can he resist him? Myles is everything Ethan has been yearning for. But when Nick, a stunning top Chef and friend of Ethan's, asks for his help in launching his new nightclub, Blue Dreams, Ethan and Myles' budding love affair is put to the test. Ethan meets Nick's lovely husband Derek, and sparks fly between the four men. As the ambitious foursome work together to get Nick's Blue Dreams off the ground, the sexual tension rises between them all. And one night, they cross the line, giving in to their fantasies. The next morning, their treasured friendship is on the line, and one of them is ready to walk out on the love of his life. The man he's loved since he was eleven years old... Now, it seems the blue dreams are over. But are they? less

When Derek left Nick, he promised himself he’d never look back. But almost a year has passed since then, and though Derek has found a new home, a new job, and new meaning to his life, his scars won’t heal, and Nick’s name is still written inside his purple heart. All around him, everything and everyone is moving on, but Derek remains the same―a grown man with the heart of an eleven-year-old boy. Until Nick does something that changes everything... moreWhen Derek left Nick, he promised himself he’d never look back. But almost a year has passed since then, and though Derek has found a new home, a new job, and new meaning to his life, his scars won’t heal, and Nick’s name is still written inside his purple heart. All around him, everything and everyone is moving on, but Derek remains the same―a grown man with the heart of an eleven-year-old boy. Until Nick does something that changes everything. Nick’s silent, but desperate cry for Derek, forces Derek to finally awaken to his own truth… It’s time for him to rise up and out of the ashes. It’s time for Derek to claim back the man that was, still is, and always will be, his one and only true love. words: 60 000 less