Cruelly Made Series by K.M. Hade

The team is sacred. The team is everything. And I have killed mine.I was supposed to love them, and I didn't. I tried to love them, but I couldn't. The courts condemned me to the Pit for my failings, but the Military has other plans. Aether Mages are too valuable to lose, even the ones that are too dangerous to be allowed in proper society. So now the Military has rounded up a team of innocent Fell Mages—the Mages who are Blight itself—and thrown them into the Pit with me... moreThe team is sacred. The team is everything. And I have killed mine.I was supposed to love them, and I didn't. I tried to love them, but I couldn't. The courts condemned me to the Pit for my failings, but the Military has other plans. Aether Mages are too valuable to lose, even the ones that are too dangerous to be allowed in proper society. So now the Military has rounded up a team of innocent Fell Mages—the Mages who are Blight itself—and thrown them into the Pit with me. How do we get out? Somehow make me, an Aether Heart Mage, bond with a Fell team as a Fell Shard. It has to be a sick joke, but nobody's laughing. Except maybe the Warden, who wants to throw me into the lower levels to be used as a lab rat. The Fells came from nothing, and they don't plan on dying in the Pit. There’s the ambitious Blood, who is both cruel and infinitely kind, Rot is a giant with a terrible gift, the enigmatic Smoke, and ScatheFire, who is the closest thing to a friend I’ve ever had. There's something about each of them that brushes me like bird wings, but even if I could become a Fell Shard, my own heart is so broken I'll never love anything again, and I know nobody should ever love me. They should be more afraid of me than they are. My love devours souls. Epic dark fantasy medium-burn "it's complicated" love-hate reverse harem romance featuring a broken heroine who doesn't want to be put back together. less

The team is everything. The team is sacred. And I have failed mine. The Pit is the place for monsters. The worst of the worst. I belong here. The Fells do not. They intend to win their freedom, and they need me to do it, even if it means lying to everyone I've become their Shard. Even if it means leaving ScatheFire behind. Even if it means marrying one or all of them when this is over, and agreeing to whatever terms Blood sets... moreThe team is everything. The team is sacred. And I have failed mine. The Pit is the place for monsters. The worst of the worst. I belong here. The Fells do not. They intend to win their freedom, and they need me to do it, even if it means lying to everyone I've become their Shard. Even if it means leaving ScatheFire behind. Even if it means marrying one or all of them when this is over, and agreeing to whatever terms Blood sets. But the Warden has no intention of letting me go, and he's determined to break what's left of my will and own my Aether-bound husk for himself. The Fells are powerless to stop the torment, and I am alone to endure it. I don't need to be their Heart or their Shard to know that their souls are crumbling under the nightmare they're living. I have to be strong for all of us, but I don't have much time, and I'll have to ask them to give up the only thing that's kept them alive: their hope. Epic dark fantasy medium-burn "it's complicated" love-hate reverse harem romance featuring a broken heroine who doesn't want to be put back together. less